It is Monday morning on this first day of a new month as I record this message and it feels so good to be in this energetic space of connecting with you.
I just finished recording today's Gaia's Love podcast, which I titled "Breathe In... Breathe Out." I shared the lyrics from Alicia Mathewson's song with that title and bring that same soothing vibration into this message to you.
It appears that so many of us are on this journey of"standing up, falling down, getting up again, looking around, practicing trust, feeling the doubt, breathing in and breathing out."
We are indeed "birthing a brand new WE" and that is the energy I feel for this new month.
This year, I turned 47, which has me very close to the age of 50. I remember when I was young thinking that 50 was so old! People who had made it to that age must be so wise and have everything figured out because they were so old!
And here I am... Realizing that I don't have it all figured out.
That there is still so much for me to learn.
As much as I know I have grown and expanded in my own Soul Journey and in this specific lifetime, the older I get, the more I realize how much there still is for me to learn.
September was a month of shake-ups in my life. Mostly in my relationships with my friends, with my family.
As a young child, I was afraid of conflict. I learned to be the mediator, the peacemaker, the one who tried to always bring things back to a place of calm.
In my school years, I was the one always trying to bring everyone together and create community, have everyone play together on the playground as one big, happy group.
In my intimate relationships, I learned to give in and do whatever was needed to keep things peaceful, harmonious within the home.
It was not until my 40's that I really began learning how to use my voice to speak MY Truth. To claim what I needed. To put my boundaries in place.
And as far as I thought I had advanced in that learning, September brought another level beyond what I knew possible for myself.
I used to be afraid of anger. Afraid of expressing anger because of the volatility with which it could be projected back.
This past month, I threw all of that fear out and ROARED my Truth. Felt all the emotions moving through me and willingly, courageously shared the depths of those emotions with those I trust around me.
The most incredible surprise came from my choice to stand up in my Truth so powerfully...
Fear... Doubt... Distrust could begin to come to the surface and be seen.
And then slowly, layer by layer, start to move out of my relationships.
What has been fascinating for me is that it has not been in just one relationship... it has been in many, all at the same time.
Where in the past, I would have contracted in... gone into hiding... put my arms around myself and cried with fear... over the past few weeks, I have instead pulled my shoulders back, opened my heart wider, looked those I love in the eyes and raged, yelled, cried... and asked to be held.
And the Healing has begun.
Relationships are our Greatest Teachers...
Those with our partners, our children, our parents, our friends, our co-workers, our neighbors... Relationships act as mirrors, reflecting back to us the places where WE are not in integrity. Where WE are operating from fear.
Where WE have doubt.
We can choose to focus on the other person and all of the faults and wounds and limitations we see in THEM.
Or we can continuously look in the mirror and see ourselves.
See the places where WE have been afraid. Where WE have been in doubt. Where WE have not trusted. Where WE have held up walls that have been too high for those across from us to try bridge.
Sometimes it takes a cracking of that wall, much like an earthquake in the ground... in the surface of Gaia.
When the walls start to crack and crumble, we are left feeling raw, naked, exposed. And yet, there is finally space... clear, open space between us and the one across from us to begin a new dialogue.
As I have walked through this month's earthquakes in my own relationships, I have been watching it play out politically, socially, publicly, in so many arenas.
Yes, we are in our individual journeys and always growing, learning, expanding as the individual Soul within the human body, AND... we are a collective Consciousness.
A collective humanity.
A collective energy field within the womb of this planet.
So what happens to each of us ripples out through ALL of us.
We can lose ourselves in the stories of all of those around us and their issues, problems. Or we can practice looking in the mirror and seeing our own reflection, our own stories. Doing the harder work, which happens individually, within our own quiet space. Within our own intimate relationships.
I write this to you today, knowing I do not have all the answers. I do not have tried and true paths for every individual to heal every relationship in their life.
I have "fallen down, looked around, felt the pain and the doubt."
And always... "I stand back up. I breathe in, I breathe out."
My commitment to myself, first, is to always speak my Truth.
To stand firmly with my feet planted on Gaia, my shoulders back, my heart open to always, always Love More. With Source at my back to hold me steady in this journey.
I stand here at the beginning of October, feeling more Love in my relationships than I possibly could have imagined a month ago. Feeling more intimately connected to my partner, my friends, my children than ever before.
And so I claim this theme for October of Deepening Relationships.
Is it possible to love all of those closest to me in my life even more than I already do?
In this moment... absolutely YES. 100% Yes.
And my commitment is to keep walking this path of deepening relationships.
"I breathe in and I breathe out..."
As I feel my Circle forming around me, expanding around me... as I feel more and more Soul-humans being magnetized towards the power of the Love I share with the world, I am clearer than ever that the messages I channel and flow through from my Soul, from my Guides, from Source-God, from Gaia.. are meant to inspire and guide humanity as we continue to move through this shift in Consciousness.
So, I invite you to also deepen OUR relationship.
If you are new to my healing space, to my work, my creative gifts, I invite you to begin by tuning into Gaia's Love, my daily podcast, where I simply connect... connect energetically to all of the Love that guides my path. And I share simple messages each day about what is happening in my journey and how I feel the connection to the collective journey.
They are short, sweet, beautiful messages of Love that offer inspiration and hope.
You can listen here.
If you are local, here in the Cincinnati community, I host New Moon Circles each month and then other events as inspired throughout the year. I am coordinating plans for the 11-11 Portal weekend, so mark your calendar and more information will be available soon.
Being together... in person... eye to eye... hand in hand... heart to heart... is the most powerful pathway to deepening relationships.
And I love, love, love being in community with like-minded Souls! Please consider coming to my home if these events resonate with you.
For those who are local and those who are not, I offer virtual community and healing every week in several ways.
On Tuesday nights at 5:55pm ET, I show up via video (Zoom) and share stories. Since I started SO's Soul Stories, the space has mostly been mine to process through all that I have been learning and integrating in my journey.
As we begin this new month of October, focusing on relationships, it feels like time to invite you, your friends, your family, fellow Seekers to come be in community.
You can call in if you prefer to be anonymous or you can show up on video. And we chat. We talk about the topics that are happening collectively. The stories we are working through individually. And we connect. I am naturally wired to coach and guide those that I love when I see them struggling or in pain, and so I offer that support in this space if it is needed. You can learn more here.
And on Sundays at 10am ET each week, I show up via phone to guide what I have long been calling a meditation. I have realized this month that these Sunday group calls are profound energy healings... crystal healings... where we access the pure power and potential of our planet's energy, connect to Source / God / Creator... and flow through healing in whatever way is needed individually and collectively within the container.
These are one-hour healing sessions and they are absolutely beautiful. I receive as much as I flow through and offer in support. So I encourage you to show up with me and experience this healing space.
There is also a Library of past energy clearings available, if you are looking for support at other times during the week besides the live virtual gathering.
And yes... I still offer individual Healing Sessions.
I have been asked by several friends recently if I still "coach" because so much of my conversations are about the podcast, the books, and the events I host.
One of my Loves recently reminded me that coaching is like my instrument that I play that I am very good at... and it is time for me to play my instrument more.
Yes, that feels true.
My sight, my vision through my third eye is so clear and so pure, filled with such Love.
I know that the space I offer in my healing work is like a cocoon for you to curl up in and be held and seen and witnessed and supported as you move through your Awakening and expansion. You can learn more about my Healing Sessions and book a time that works for you here.
I can feel the momentum of My Soul Journey building and strengthening.
There is a great need on our planet right now for the messages that flow from Source and Gaia through me and so many others at this time. Thank you for the ways that you help share me and my work with those you love.
I look forward to continuing to deepen our relationship in whatever ways feel best.
Sending SO Much Love to you today,
Vivienne Gerard – Teacher / Scribe / Healer / Guide / Lover of Souls and Humanity
Clearing Past Patterns to Co-Create an Empowered NOW
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