"I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything
You held me down, but I got up (hey!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, your hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake your ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready 'cause I've had enough
I see it all, I see it now
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter
Dancing through the fire
'Cause I am the champion, and you're gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar!" ~ lyrics from Roar by Katy Perry
This song has been speaking to me over the past two weeks and it feels important to share the lyrics with this group at this time. It takes courage to love yourself so much that you can see ALL of who you are... and then to claim that as a Roar! in this lifetime. And you wouldn't have been pulled at this time, towards this group, this work, and me - unless you were ready to hear this message and answer your own call.
I believe for many of us that our greatest fear is that we are going to end up alone. Somehow, someway, we felt that we were abandoned early on in our lives (by God, our parents, our siblings, our friends...) and we have spent the time since then doing everything to avoid looking at or feeling and releasing that fear. I'm calling bullshit on that story! It's just fear, holding you back, keeping you small, and limiting you. Loving ourselves first dissolves that fear because in that space, we find that we ARE Love. We are never alone.
The lyrics from In the Sun by Donna DeLory explores the question:
"If I find my own way, how much will I find You?
I don't know anymore
What it's for
I'm not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
cause I've been caught in between all I wish for and all I need
Maybe you're not even sure what it's for
Any more than me
May God's love be with you Always.
I am standing here, feet firmly planted, saying that Love Wins.
That if you choose yourself, if you take the time to look inward and start unraveling the old stories and patterns that you feel holding you back... you will find yourself. And there, you will find a deeper Love. The kind of Love that you've always known is possible but have not perhaps felt in a very long time. Yes. Emphatically - YES.
I am walking the same path with you, but can see just a little ahead to say that it's 100% true.
(Yay - insert happy, dancing, smiley emojis here!!! Just for fun validation, I included in a photo of the license plate my son and I saw on Tuesday morning!)
So what do you do? Start by listening to the songs above and see what resonates. Sit still and tune in for a few minutes. Stop the busy pace that keeps you a little distanced from yourself and see if there is an internal nod - "yup, she's speaking some truth here." And then take inspired action.
If you haven't been on a Soul Shine call yet, or if you haven't been on one in a while, or if you were just on it last week, the invitation from my heart is to claim a Soul Shine hour for yourself this weekend. (If live feels too intense, listen to the recording later in the day or on Monday.) Exchange $10 and tune in to yourself. In my opinion, there is not a more loving and empowering space than the one I hold for all of us each Sunday. It feels like it's time to allow your soul to roar - in your own way!
"Divine Teacher, Beloved Friend, I bow to you Again and Again
Lotus sitting on the water, beyond all time and space, this is your way, this is your grace." ~ Ong Namo
Vivienne Gerard - Healer / Guide / Lover of Souls and Humanity
Clearing Past Patterns to Co-Create an Empowered NOW
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