I trust you are well!
I am writing to you on a grey Saturday afternoon here in Cincinnati, the day after my 47th birthday. My heart and Soul are filled with gratitude and love for this life that I am living.
Abundance shows itself in so many ways and I am getting better and better at receiving the abundance of Love, support, encouragement, and recognition for my Gifts that so many reflected to me just this week. Thank you!
I have been pondering this week what I would want to share about my journey in this moment and the words that kept coming forward are "A Mama's Love...".
We are in a time of deep healing for the Feminine... and for the Masculine in how they engage with the Feminine.
When we are Souls who choose our human experiences for the growth that will inevitably happen from the density and limitation of being in the physical body, the first relationship that we choose is the one with our mother.
Every Soul-human is birthed through the womb... the incubator... the energetic space-holder of a mother. And so the relationships we have with our mothers are the most complex, the most tender, the most expansive, the most painful, the most joyful of ALL of our relationships, depending on the path that is co-created between these two Souls in human bodies.
This is often some of the most difficult and also liberating healing possible in our lifetime. Going back to the choice as a Soul to incarnate with our mothers, we reach the root of many of the relationship patterns that play out in our lifetime.
At this time of my birthday... the day in which MY Mom birthed me into the world... I feel called to offer a few reflections on A Mama's Love.
(Mom and baby me in the photo here!)
As it is for all energy workers, every client in his/her healing work also shows us the places where we still need to heal our own patterns. And so over many, many years, I have energetically explored my relationship with my mother. When we do that level of healing work, we naturally look at the lineage of all of the females in our family - our grandmothers, our great-grandmothers, their grandmothers - because many of these patterns and beliefs are handed down from generation to generation through our DNA.
As a wise, old Soul, I chose a lineage of very strong, independent, huge-hearted females!
The women in my family make courageous choices over and over again, as teachers, mothers, writers, gardeners, artists, healers, workers, travelers... This strength can sometimes appear to be fierce or harsh to a young child who does not understand the complexity of the choices that adults face. And yet, always... always... always... the Love and care of these females for their families was a tangible force that could not be denied.
My grandmother, whom we called Momsie (with me in this photo), was an artist, designer, builder, and teacher who loved to create with her hands. Creative energy is often difficult to include in a schedule that requires taking care of a family and working a full time job. I often have imagined the frustration that my creative grandmother felt in those busy years with young children. In her final years, she spent most of her days painting, and some of my most favorite pieces of art in our home today were gifts from my Momsie.
My mother stayed home with us when we were young children and her artistic creations were through sewing - quilts, cushions, dolls, curtains, clothes. The juggle that she felt to take care of three young children's needs while my father was often travelling and working out of the country must have been such a challenge. And yet, I still remember my childhood being filled with Love and hugs and so much play!
In her early 40's, when I was 11, my Mom made the life-changing, courageous decision to leave ALL that was familiar in South Africa behind and move halfway around the world with our family to my Dad's American homeland. It is difficult for me to comprehend all the ways that this one decision impacted my Mom.
This is where I most deeply feel A Mama's Love from my mother.
In the movie, The Arrival, there's a moment where the main character asks her future husband, "If you knew all that was going to happen in the future and that it might include some pain, would you still make the choice to begin that future?" I marvel at the strength of my mother's Soul, knowing that this choice and its resulting ripples would be a key part of her human journey.
(A family photo during a visit in the USA, just a few years before our move.)
When we arrived in the United States, my Mom also started working full-time, which fills the schedule and adds so much extra responsibility into any mother's journey. Her juggle to nurture her family became even more complex, along with the multitude of adjustments to life in a new home country. Threads of her powerful story are found in those of so many of the millions of other immigrants who have helped shape our country.
In the many years and continued life's changes since, my Mom has been right by my side through every major choice I have made. Encouraging me, believing in me, and supporting me with this strong, wide Feminine Love.
A Mama's Love... one of the greatest gifts in this human experience.
I have learned how to love my own children through the examples that my mother and grandmother have offered me... and found a beautiful balance in my creative work AND supporting the needs of my family.
At this time of my birthday, I feel the harmony and embodiment of BOTH / AND... both / and... being the fullest expression of my Soul with all the gifts that I came here to be... AND... being a human Mama who is present, aware, and supportive of all that my children's Souls came here to create in their lifetimes.
(Our family photo this past Christmas Day - my Mom's birthday!)
It has taken so much contemplation, examination, and releasing of old patterns and beliefs to sit calmly and steadily in this place where I can see all perspectives with compassion...
... and treasure..
Treasure the Love that flows through the Feminine in my family.
Blessings to all of the strong, courageous females in my family who have walked this human journey before me.
A Mama's Love in our Soul-human journeys is also directly reflected in Mama Gaia's Love for humanity.
In my work, I feel this ever-deepening connection to our planet... to Mama Earth... to Mama Gaia... to the energy that flows in this womb or incubator of our physical home planet.
We are in a time of Great Change. Sitting firmly and steadily with an open heart as a Soul-human, feeling this deep connection to A Mama's Love from Gaia, is also a gift I treasure on my birthday.
I am filled with gratitude for the Gift of my Journey, and all that is yet to arrive.
We gather tomorrow morning for our weekly Gaia's Crystal Grid Meditation, to connect in with Mama Gaia and feel the pulse of what is happening on our planet. You can join us here. And then I am off with my husband and son to go visit my daughter at college and revel in A Mama's Love for my children!
On Tuesday, the play of SO's Soul Stories is available, if you are ready to share your reflections and enjoy a conversation about any of these topics with me! You can learn more here. If you missed last week's Cleansing Waters' play, my Mama energy is clearly present as I guide you through a deeper connection with your body!
And as we wrap up January and step into February, the next SO's Soul Weekend is scheduled for February 16-19th. Perhaps your Soul is calling for a cocoon, a womb in which you can pause the activity of your life and go inward to heal some of these old stories and patterns. My home is a protected space of deep Love where Truth is seen and reflected with gentleness and kindness... and we are ALL called to step into the beauty of our Souls in human bodies. You can learn more here.
Thank you for being on this journey with me.
So much love from my heart to yours!
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Vivienne Gerard – Teacher / Scribe / Healer / Guide / Lover of Souls and Humanity
Clearing Past Patterns to Co-Create an Empowered NOW
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